Feb 24, 2016 06:32 AM EST
John 13:18 "I am not referring to all of you; I know those I have chosen. But this is to fulfill the scripture: 'He who shares my bread has lifted up his heel against me.'
13:19 "I am telling you now before it happens, so that when it does happen you will believe that I am He.
13:20 I tell you the truth, whoever accepts anyone I send accepts me; and whoever accepts me accepts the one who sent me."
13:21 After he had said this, Jesus was troubled in spirit and testified, "I tell you the truth, one of you is going to betray me."
13:22 His disciples stared at one another, at a loss to know which of them he meant.
13:23 One of them, the disciple whom Jesus loved, was reclining next to him.
13:24 Simon Peter motioned to this disciple and said, "Ask him which one he means."
13:25 Leaning back against Jesus, he asked him, "Lord, who is it?"
13:26 Jesus answered, "It is the one to whom I will give this piece of bread when I have dipped it in the dish." Then, dipping the piece of bread, he gave it to Judas Iscariot, son of Simon.
13:27 As soon as Judas took the bread, Satan entered into him. "What you are about to do, do quickly," Jesus told him,
13:28 but no one at the meal understood why Jesus said this to him.
13:29 Since Judas had charge of the money, some thought Jesus was telling him to buy what was needed for the Feast, or to give something to the poor.
13:30 As soon as Judas had taken the bread, he went out. And it was night.
Through the serving of the Lord, the disciples' heart melted. But when Jesus said "one of you is going to betray me", the atmosphere turned dark all of a sudden. Here, He is talking about something which is so sorrow.
At the table, the Lord seated in the middle, and "the disciple whom Jesus loved, was reclining next to him". The left side of the Lord is where the important one can seat. Then it was Judas who seated there. Since then, they lean using the left arm and ate with the right hand, the head of John was facing Jesus, and Jesus had towards Judas.
Only Jesus and Judas knew that the seed of betrayal was planted in Judas. Now tension flows between the both. The other disciples did not know at all. It shows us that they lost spiritual sensitivity. The Lord went through the path of the Cross and all the pain alone.
It is so difficult to love while knowing the evil plot. The Lord knew all, but He exhorted Judas until the end just as Psalm 41 says.
41:1 For the director of music. A psalm of David. Blessed is he who has regard for the weak; the LORD delivers him in times of trouble.
41:2 The LORD will protect him and preserve his life; he will bless him in the land and not surrender him to the desire of his foes.
41:3 The LORD will sustain him on his sickbed and restore him from his bed of illness.
Judas should have prayed that "O LORD, have mercy on me; heal me, for I have sinned against you." However, the tragedy is that not only the spiritual leaders, but also a close friend who shared the bread lifted up his heel.
41:5 My enemies say of me in malice, "When will he die and his name perish?"
41:6 Whenever one comes to see me, he speaks falsely, while his heart gathers slander; then he goes out and spreads it abroad.
41:7 All my enemies whisper together against me; they imagine the worst for me, saying,
41:8 "A vile disease has beset him; he will never get up from the place where he lies."
41:9 Even my close friend, whom I trusted, he who shared my bread, has lifted up his heel against me.
There was a wrong anger in Judas who received love and trust more than any others. The Lord placed in the closest seat, and said "I am he". Actually, it is unspeakably miserable to say that much straightforward. But, Judas didn't turn over his mind. "Jesus was troubled in spirit". Judas refused the Lord's voice of love, and went out into the darkness. There is this stubbornness and hardened heart inside of him. He was set up as one of the twelve disciples through the absolute providence of love. But, he betrayed Jesus and left Him. This is different sin from the betrayal of Peter. While Peter fell down because of his weakness, Jesus betrayed Jesus with consistent plot to sell him. This is so ugly image of sin.
When Jesus told Judas "what you are about to do, do quickly," there must be unspeakable pain in the Lord. Let us look back on ourselves if there is this cold image like Judas who just left Jesus even after receiving the piece of bread, the sacrificial love of Christ. Let us follow the way of Jesus through understanding His sorrow and pain, and His amazing love towards the terrible sinner.